I am a bad person...

So Sheyenne's cat that she has had for almost 3 years died today. Stupid thing has had some bladder issues and shit and I started calling him piss face due to this but anyways he was at the vets and was just fine last night but then this morning he was dead.

And I am ... Releaved... Which sounds bad but if you think about the pros of the situation, you would agree... No more cat piss on my clothes. Less cat fur on my clothes. No more vet bills eating the rent money. And it will be easier for mom to get an apt with one cat and one dog versus 3 animals...

JUST SAYING!

I mean sure Ill miss the little buggar, but...

marriage to a sex offender?

So whilest I was at perkins last night, I found the paperwork I needed to figure out if Sheldon and I can get married. As obvious as it is, I dont know if we can due to his charge, but as those who know me, I WILL find a way to make it work. For crying out loud, I was denied from visitation and made it on the damn list. And as far and expensive as it was to go and SEE him, I made it happen. THUS I feel as though I could do this as well.

Is it really my fault if I am in love with someone who is going ot be on the sex offenders registry. OH did you know that ben? lol shit.OH WELL. Anyways, dont judge him for that, and dont tell steve. but I think that last part was a given....

So I really hope that the idea is correct. Look at the form and tell me... http://www.ct.gov/doc/LIB/doc/PDF/AD/ad1009.pdf

Do you think I could make it work?? I am relatively confidant that I could... Also, do you think he wants to? God ben when are we having another date night so I can just unload on you??? lol...

Anyways, I would love to get married, and I know sheldon is the one, with or without that damn spark. And I found the info I need to get married. Now if I could only make it work....

WHY MUST LOVE BE SO HARD????

sex offenders....

http://thestir.cafemom.com/in_the_news/115499/should_sex_offenders_be_castrated

Normally I love what the stir has to offer, but not this. This makes me want to cry.

On one hand, I totally agree, the nasty ones, like those who molest babies or whatever, should die.

But then again, I want to have babies... So NO I have to say they shouldnt. damn.

I wish I was in CT :'(

i shall call this severe ADD and it shall stick!

GOD. I am so freaking ADD right now... Im doing homework, talking with karen, messaging mitch, and looking up new vacay ideas while swimming in the joy of quitting dominos and getting a new job.... oh and add sex/love/feelings in the mix, since i thought of that today too.... OH another topic- pregnancy...

1. Homework. I have had all the answers for weeks 1 thru 7 already... Now im in week 8 and actually HAVE to do my own work, which is annoying.

2. Karen. I dont think she remembers being in love or having a job. Like, seriously. I want to come back out east and see my man. And at the same time I dont want to waste my vacation days all right away, since they are my sick leave days too.... just saying....

3. Mitch. I dont want him to move to texas. In fact, I would love for him to stick around so that I can have a fuck buddy. why even bother covering it up. I would like to have sex. BUT at the same time, i dont feel attracted to him? OK that is another paragraph all together...

4. New vacay ideas. Well, IDK what they are right now. If i work weekends, ill go tues-thurs with a flight home early fri to make it to work... If i work during the week, ill use a day for a friday... idk, ill make it work...

5. Dominos. I QUIT!!! yay me!! lol. Last day will be 2-5, so my last paycheck will be on 2/11.

6. New job. WEST!!! 12.50 an hour, 40 hrs a week, 48 hours of paid vacay, all holidays are paid, and are 1.5pay if i work them. HOW FUCKING AMAZING!!!

7. Sex/Love/Feelings. Um, I noticed yesterday that i didnt feel anything around Travis. Now, I havent been around Mitch or Burger, but I think that going and seeing sheldon face-to-face has been the thing to "lock" my feelings in. I love sheldon. I dont feel the need to be with another guy here. Altho i would like to have someone to fool around with once i have my own apartment and can do whatever whenever where-ever. but its not that big of a deal I suppose... w/e. I still have my toys ;)

8. Pregnancy. UM so like i had this fucked up dream that i got knocked up (by steve **shudder**) and sheldon left me cuz of it. and that SCARED me. And so I really dont want to have sex, just in case something DID happen. Like, not just steve but anyone. **still shuddering, now feeling nauseous**

ok, bye again lol

possibly paranoid???

So like I was telling BTJ earlier, soemthing seems off with sheldon's mom.. below are my PM with her tonight as I did my homework. She is sooo into saving these random ass dogs on teh west coast when she lives on the east coast. She could volunteer at a shelter but no the lady sits at home with no physical contact with the outside world.

Granted, I could just be paranoid. But when she told me she doesnt want me marrying her son, well, thats just a little fucked up considering she is hte one who got us together in the first place. If it hadnt been for her wish on wishuponahero.com, I would have never ever met the man of my dreams, and I would probably got stuck with fat ass.... OH now Im gonna have nightmares... WHICH reminds me, I need to post the night mare I had the other night, which involved fat ass and my sheldon... it was CREEPY... ok, read the messages below and tell me im paranoid!




Shannon Park January 24 at 12:06am
I wants to know, AM I INVISIBLE??? is there a reason why you are ignoring me??? Because I feel as tho in the last week since I went to CT to meet my love, your son, you have not been very chatty or anything... I miss my mama bear :'(


Karen Thomson January 24 at 12:10am Report
Umm no I haven't been 'ignoring' you , I have just been keeping to myself, posting dogs and just doing my own thing. I have been quiet lately, nothing personal.


Shannon Park January 24 at 12:12am
well I miss you. a lot. and so i thought i would say something. because you havent commented on any of my posts, even the important moving-out-on-my-own ones, or liking any of them, or even my posts from last weekend when i was all "best two hours of my life" and whatnot. And its just been striking me as odd and weird. So i decided to say soemthing. I worry about you :/


Karen Thomson January 24 at 12:16am Report
Eh I am just in a quiet mood lately, I get that way I told you that. I go through these periods it's just me, and I hope it works out for you moving out you will no doubt be happier.


Shannon Park January 24 at 12:34am
Understandable. Its just been ages since we really talked. and that makes me sad :( I swear I might just come out there and spend a whole weekend with just you and make you happy and take you places nad do things and yeah! lolz. what do you think of that??

Karen Thomson January 24 at 12:50am Report
Haha yeah maybe, that would be cool, but like I said it's just me, I get in moods where I don't leave my house for weeks and just don't want to talk to anyone, even my family. I am actually going to bed in a few minutes I think, the dog posting has taken a toll on me the last few days. =[


Shannon Park January 24 at 1:01am
Yeah, understandable. I feel as though we really need to talk, like a serious convo, soon. For now, I just got done with my homework, and am headed to bed. I work 4 hours tomorrow, then have a very important big job interview at 4 my time. Wish me luck! I told rocky about it last weekend when I was out (god was it ONLY a week ago?????) adn I know he is rooting for me to get it... Good night mama bear, I loves you!!!

Karen Thomson January 24 at 1:05am Report
Oh OK well good luck I hope it goes well, and yeah get some sleep. Ha yeah it was only a week ago, I'm glad it went good and I know he was excited as were you. Anyway yeah I'm going to bed soon too, just tired and need my energy for my full on war with Verizon those fuckers. So have a good sleep and let us know how it goes tomorrow. =]


Shannon Park January 24 at 1:09am
Why are you fighting verizon? And, its just weird that one week ago today i was in CT. Like, it really does feel like months already since my trip. And it feels like ages until my next one, especially cuz if i get this job i have to change the dates of the next trip. I mean, the job is sooo worth the change but still... I am still waiting on a post-visit letter, although I have sent 4 in the last few days lol. I know he will love the extra mail :P

blogged from steve's...

Ok so today is Sunday morning, and I am at Steve’s. Originally I was here to do some homework but now there isn’t any internet.

I am doing the number one of my favoritest things in the whole world right now, Im watching GONE WITH THE WIND!!! I love love love love love love LOVE this movie more than you can imagine! Oh God scarlett is so fucking awesome.
Ok. So I am getting really sick of Steve. This fucking apartment is disgusting. There are half glasses of orange juice and milk lying around. Plates of taco bell food just chilling on the floor. The cat box is gross. The dishes are just nasty. Seriously, there is a butcher knife protruding from the sink, blade out. LIKE HELLO DANGEROUS!!!
And then Steve is saying I’M the one being mean. Whatever. He will not be coming to my apartment when I get it, cuz I want my place to be NICE and CLEAN. GRRR. Between this house and moms I know what my place is NOT going to look like lolz. Ben, you are a maybe as to coming over. I know the apartment isn’t all your fault cuz you have a JOB which Steve obviously doesn’t want, but still. I have to say, you guys should kick him out. The sad part is idk when or if you will get to read this with Ben/Tiff not having the internet working. But I hope you do get this and see what I think.

***LATER***

Ok. So tomorrow is my second interview for a good paying job. I want the job really bad. But I am 50/50 on if I will get it. If I do get it, I have to post pone my vacay until June. Not that big of a deal to do tho, Cuz if I do that, I will take a 5 day vacay, going Weds June 1st and coming home Sunday June 5th, getting at least 3 visits with Sheldon <3 ...

Anyways... My boss at Dominos is going to be hella mad when he finds out I am not working the super bowl. I am already scheduled at Milio's. Oh well. I am not worried about it. Hopefully I will get this job so I can tell domino's to kiss my fat white ass :P

I need to do homework... Adios!

tax time!!

Ok so I have no one to gloat to, so my blog with its *possible* two readers get to hear all about it...

I did my taxes today. And..... Im getting...

FIVE GRAND

back. How awesome is that??? And, I didnt even claim Shey or Mom. So its ALLLLLLLLL mine, bwahahahahaha!!! And that is what is going to pay for me to move out on my own! Hellz to the fuck yeah. Lizzi is sooo worth 5 grand, lol.

So, I want to pay a few months ahead for my place. So if I get a $650 apt, I need:

$650 - security deposit
$650 - first month
$650 - second month
$650 - third month ... for a total of:

$2,600. Totally do able! I am fucking excited!!

I saw the best apartment earlier, and just wanted to sign the lease right then and there!!! Its a 2 bedroom apt, 800 sq ft, and it was just fucking huge. even the kitchen. I am quite excited. Unless i like this one bedroom more tomorrow (which i probley wont), i WILL be getting this place. the bedrooms were BIG. and the bathroom was amazing too! god. I am so in love with the place. damn.

^^^ THAT IS THE REASON WHY I AM NOT ALLOWED TO BUY A CAR OR HOUSE ON MY OWN, FYI!!!